Do things my way

Been thinking lately

I kinda hate myself now

It's the worst feeling, ever

Worked so hard to suppress myself

from acting like myself

It's hard to make everyone happy

since there's no perfect solution for this

I've decided

I'll just do whatever that makes ME happy

after all, I was not born to please everyone

I'm not kind, I'm not generous

I'm not everything nice (cause I'm not Powerpuff girl)

#whatalamejoke haha

As for those issues like KONY, Lynas, war or whatever

Yes, I do feel sorry for those people

and think the bad guy should be raped and rot in hell

but when it's unrelated to me and loved ones around me

Hah! You know what?

I SIMPLY DON'T CARE

The truth is

I have more passion for animals and universe

than fellow human beings

in fact, I think human is the biggest pest on earth that should be eliminated

I simply don't have a heart big enough to start caring about these stuff

and I'm not gonna start acting like I care now

Whatever people think about the real me

feel free to do so

and why should I care about how people feel about me anyway

I've been faking it as not to make anyone upset

I feel tired, I wanna stop

I just wanna be myself

so

From now on
I'm gonna stop pretending
I'm gonna stop caring

I'm gonna do whatever I want, whenever I feel like it

If you hate me, that's fine

I should be more selfish

be more self-centered

not to the point of being a total ass though

I still don't like the idea of anyone hating me

will remain polite and respectful to others

I don't wanna be a rude, uneducated asshole

I wanna feel free to hate and like

I wanna set my feelings free

I wanna just think for nothing but myself, for once

我已经活得很累了

为什么还要让自己这么委屈？

活着，只为自己 不为别人

不要再装摸作样，取人欢心

不要再勉强自己，为别人改变自己

p/s: feel so much better after letting it all out. It's time to set myself free...and sleep.